We are spinning our own fates, good, evil, never to be undone.-William James
THE WORLD KEEPS SPINNING
Wow! What a week.
I wasn’t sure that I was even going to get around to creating a blog this week.
My load in life is currently maxed out.
If you were to physically see me you might think to yourself, hmm, she looks calm and collected, but if we were to open the door to my mind the sheer momentum of the thought processes going on in there would be enough to knock you over, or at least really mess your hair up.
I have been averaging 4 hours of sleep a night for the last two weeks. It’s just because I can’t turn off my brain, and the fact that it has been hotter than Satan’s breathe hasn’t helped much.
I have a lot of techniques I use to help me sleep when I can’t, but lately they haven’t been working.
My mind is in hyper-drive these days.
My mind sees my current challenges of job and home as problems. As my highly efficient mind attempts to solve these “problems” it has taken my body and my soul along for the ride. And this ride, is one doozy of a roller coaster.
I just can’t seem to turn off my mind right now. Mostly because what I am thinking about is so much fun and I am really excited about it. New ideas are flooding in constantly. It is never ending.
What I am about with my life will be the single greatest, self-motivated change I have ever made.
It’s BIG!, and the opportunities are endless.
The more research I do, the more options present themselves.
I am constantly sifting, shifting and restructuring. From the outside it might appear to the average viewer that my life is really just more of the same ol’ same ol’, but it’s not.
I thought I had nothing to write about this week because I can’t really share any measurable progress. Everything is still the planning stages, but moving very quickly.
Sometimes I wish I could share my thoughts and concepts with my mom, or I think about how nice it would be to communicate my dreams and discuss my concerns with someone outside of myself like a trusted intimate, but when it comes down to it, I know I only have me to rely on so there really isn’t any reason to look outside of myself at this stage of the game.
Once things have been solidified I will share the details.
Sometimes it feels very cramped in here, this mind, this body.
It’s a funny thing. The more isolated I get, the further down the rabbit hole I travel, the less in touch I am with everything outside of the world I am creating, the outside world still continues to spin round.
It is important at this time that I find time to relax and meditate. The best time to do those things are when you think you don’t have the time to do them.
It is important to create ease and flow when things seem insurmountable.
I am exhausted right now. Between creating my dream, the increased work load at my job, combined with the lack of sleep, I admit it, I am exhausted. So now is the perfect time to slow down, reset the pace, and spend some time doing fun, being fun.
I’m getting ready to fly out of state tomorrow for a three day visit with some of my oldest friends and I am really looking forward to that. I will probably do a little work for myself while there, but mostly I will be relaxing and taking it easy.
I’m gonna take this opportunity to hop off of my hamster wheel and enjoy spending time with other people.
Someone other than ME.
Might I suggest, we all do the same.
Happy Labor Day weekend.